Tuesday, July 25, 2006

past few days were painful. i guess nobody understands at all.
last fri, i had a bad stomache, it lasted till the next day, it was torturing. i didn't get enough rest.

saturday, rehearsal in school. got really upset and pissed about her comments, i know it was rather indirect, but it got me. ya i'm fat i know, don't have to remind me about it. your words make me real upset for so many days and i know i have not fully recovered. i know it's the fact but can't you stop it? it hurts so badly and you're laughing your day away, making me the joke. i'm not supposed to say anything ya? well, i cried like some lunatic on the way home, i really really broke down after the hunt for my pants, i didn't expect myself to be at such a depress mode. sunday, worse still. i forced myself to go to peishan's house to practice. in the end, i broke down again, right at her house. sorry mel, shan, car, jess and all, i'm just not perfect. i'm lousy, always.



maybe you don't even know, or you don't even wanna care.
forget it, i'm just being one-sided again.

ya, it's happening...

...Consider it not so deeply.