Tuesday, October 10, 2006

POA and math paper today. i expected a total fail for both subjects. i don't know anything about POA. I just used a 15 min to complete the whole MCQ paper for poa. didn't finish my math paper, not enough time to complete it. i slept at 4am yesterday, i'm really freaking tired. i can't survive without my coffee.

i'm feeling very moodless now. by then, if i can't get what i want or achieve what i aim for, i'm gonna go for the easiest and dangerous way even if it'll damage my health. really hate it when it happens that way. if all these continues..i'm sorry but i'm gonna do it because you force me too. i guessed you didn't know the damage you'd done to me at that point of time. so ya, i'm seriously affected. i tried my best not to think about it, but when i seeked for your understanding, you get mad or whatever. it hurts for you'll never know how's my past lives. all i want is for you to help me out and listen to me. but nevermind, maybe just in order to get what i want, i just have to do it since there's no any other solutions anymore. if you never take my words seriously, i'm gonna prove to you, really. i'm not joking.

...Consider it not so deeply.