Thursday, November 02, 2006

more than 4 days, i think probably insomnia had approached me, suddenly. i can't get to sleep these few nights, i dont even wanna try, it's a waste of my time. i need a rest, but nightime for me is a torment now. i'm supposed to be restless and tired everyday despite the fact that my everyday routine consists of exercising, dancing and all. seriously, I'M DAMN SUPPOSED TO BE TIRED CAUSE I'M TRYING TO MAKE MYSELF TIRED BUT IT'S NOT WORKING, I STILL CAN'T SLEEP IN THE NIGHT! sometimes, i'm really tired of all the workouts and all, it's not THAT beneficial but i'm still trying. i did the most retarded thing yesterday.

1)morning jog
2)dance and workouts
3)afternoon jog
4)situps
5)stretching of the halmstrings and more

I did all the stupid retarded workouts and all at one go. really feel pissed with myself yesterday. it was actually the first time i jogged alone. actually, it feels great, kinda get all the troubles off my mind at least a while.
took back my report book today. did very badly but still managed to get promoted to S4E, but actually, i think i'm not ready for Os, totally not. i still wanna play in school, do all the chit-chatting, slack in class, sleep all the way.......thinking about it, i really missed those days :'( next year would be somewhat of a stress year, dont think there would be time to slack, sleep, talk and all. i'm gonna step down right after SYF, i think so.
dance was fine today, not that bad as i thought i would be. shan went over to my place to dye hair, damn sian la cause the colour is not really obvious, quite disappointing though. boo i'm so looking forward to dance camp, hope it's gonna be fun! how i wished it was a 3 days 2 nights camp instead of 2days 1 night. alright that's all for today.




If you are reading this...
i still feel kinda terrible to let you hold those sweaty palms for dance, it's not very nice to let someone feel the sweat in your hands. but really, thanks alot, really appreciate your understanding :]

...Consider it not so deeply.