Friday, November 24, 2006

super busy these few days, schedule totally full. dance camp 1 week ago was a blast, it was great. my group won the overall. sat full shift, sun afternoon shift, monday dance practice, tues full shift. wednesday was kexin's birthday, went for two dance practices. wanted to see melody, headed back to school in the afternoon. security guards didn't allow us to go in, climb the fence and got myself cut because a passerby was looking, slipped and the barbed wires went into my skin, yes it teared. sway, in a row. blood at the field area, everything went wrong. my pants got dirty, got mocked at. feel so shag, feel so helpless. went to pass xin her birthday present after that, sat at my block area, was so damn shocked, didn't know my wound was so deep. it bleed even today. have to work afternoon shift on thurs, thanks alex for letting me do shelf label. today friday, off. sat and sun, full shift. i hate doing entrance and cashier, i hate that black woman, bitch.



sorry i changed, not that melissa i used to be. go back to your best friend since you love her so much, i hate it when the term was just a name between us. stop dragging others inside, you didn't tell me anything in the first place so you expect me to know everything? i've not recover totally yet you want to start all these. alright, i hate explaining, think what you want and do what you want. melissa is dead today, no longer someone you need anymore. i realised, the bond and trust between us is just too fragile, no point. you never trust me, i'm tired. stop all these idiotic shit, don't make me even more tired. i can't be strong all the time. everything's my fault as i said so goodbye.

...Consider it not so deeply.