Friday, December 22, 2006

I think i need to get 'it' off my chest for a lil while because i think i can't take it anymore.


after working at toys'r'us, our friendship drifted. maybe toys'r'us is such a fun place that you didn't realise that the bond between us had faded away slowly. really.. you're always talking to me about toys'r'us, your friends at toys'r'us. as time passes, i'm so numb and tired, so sick of it that i didn't bother to tell you how upset i was. thinking back about the time when all the quarrel started, the day when you text me about my newfound. then now can i tell you something? it is that you have a bunch of newfounds that you've forgotten my existence. seriously, you upset and disappointed me really fcuking deep. during the time when i mentioned to you about my trip to m'sia, you became so enthu into telling me that you're gonna go back to toys'r'us. i know why you wanted to go back there so badly, because you wanted to see all your newfounds. i know i was right because you seemed to be lost for words when i told you off straight in your face. i'm not jealous, i'm sad. so sad that the last time 'you' ain't there anymore. you're not the same. was it me? or was it you? you told me i've changed, but now maybe you didn't realise how much you've changed instead. maybe you just didn't realise..your everything is all about toys'r'us. nothing else but that retail shop.


you know i dont really socialise. you know i dont like strangers or your newfound. you know i dont talk much. but you dont know how much you've hurt me. yes your point of view that i'm always bullying you. if you think it that way, i dont care. no choice, because in any ways, i looked stronger than you. people think i'm the meaner of the meanest, yes i am and i cant help it. i dont need you to start any conver between us, i really dont need it. please think about it. think about the difference now. you really made me feel really uncomfortable recently. i see no point, what's the point if we get back together again? we always looked so fine on the outside yet internally we're not okay. i don't want friendship to be just a packaging for the outside world to see. friendship is important to me, i dont take it lightly. i think it's time. you can't have two besties. please make a choice if not i'll settle it all by myself. i dont wanna to move on like that, in the end, the problem's unsolved still. let's give each other a break. think hard. make a choice.

...Consider it not so deeply.