Monday, February 05, 2007

happy 15th birthday jiaseeka ah mei! :) hope you love the pressies.

anw, thanks uncle loh for helping out with the cream puff even though abit cannot make it. thanks jess for the boxer :)

anw, life's making me so sad, almost too sick to carry on. yes, i looked that strong, and i'm gonna be. i wont rely on anyone, i'm depending on myself. i dont need all sort of crap from anyone, i dont have to do it your way, i dont have to suffer myself. i shall just throw everything away, leave it all aside, aint gonna pick it up. friendship is just like a burning matchstick, once the wind blows, the flame is gone and will never come back once more.

for me, i realised how much my friend dont understand about me. our distance's getting even further, i'm not gonna catch up with your life because i dont need someone who dont understand me to be there. and i dont need someone to repeat everything again and again. i dont need someone to give me attitude when she can't do any of the choreography. i dont need someone to hurt me so much and she dont realise it. i dont need someone to throw any attitude at me once i get close to some other people, that's just being over sensitive. it's like not even realising that you're doing the same. seriously, i hate answers like I'M SUPPOSED TO. if anyone's gonna tell me that. get away from me.
i hate to feel so fcuking irritated. you can cry all you want. why cant i? it's just that i dont show it all out. yes, that shows it all, you're bullied by me. seriously, i dont care anymore, i'm too tired. it's like being stress everyday, it makes me too exhausted.



yes girl, i'm always happy. and yes, this is the end. let's not drag and that's straightforward enough.

...Consider it not so deeply.